It is Hearty and Dreamy

We live in a stream of small events that is happening every moment we pass but some of the events, we can't forget at all. The human entity sensitive enough to grip them in their heart, and they recall them frequently in search of recovering the feelings. Even sometimes, someone tries to let the events forget but they fail, it is because human heart receives those events so deeply that it happens to difficult to delete, and then we consider them hearty, or dreamy events. The true events that deepened into heart consciously or unconsciously turn into lately a memory. However, if one knew the events that would be the sweet memories, he/she might not let the events go so easy as they had had.

I often recollect my past events, and it happens when I feel depression from where I live alone, and it goes into being repentant standing those past events. In the most inquiries, I think those could be true, and I am unfortunate one because of missing those chances that might be possible in my life. I left my childhood in a series of momentous events that I can touch in a lucid manner and get myself always a person of good-charactered where I never find a sign of the ignominy. But I do not get the reason, why my marital life went on an unbearable condition, in spite of my considerate behaving I could not match with her. Sacrificing many of my demands I wanted to revive the relation to last, and this was only for my children future. But the ideology mattered a lot, perhaps everyone doesn't have the quality that can permit sacrificing ideology. Especially if it is man made ideology that takes color in a form of its own, and once I discovered that my honesty or hard work never could be praised, and gradually realized that I had already had stuck in a trap that was arranged by the lies, I could not free from the trap.

Those who have sweet childhood memories perhaps they don't get a smooth and easy go, and maybe it is a fact of life. I do experience a lot of heart events as well as dreamy consequences, but I never design them for lasting me. In my student life, I was honest enough to my friends who depend on me for this virtue. Whom I married, even she spontaneously confessed my honesty in her interviews, considered my acceptance, expressed her aspiration as she was able to have me. I can recall all the memories when she present her to me as a beloved. There's a lot but everything I don't want to write today. I just want to imagine the hearty and dreamy moment that everybody should have to recall. I do not go to explain the definition of a life because I am not an expert, but I can draw some of sorrows and happiness which can have some extreme taste of desires. It is also important to remember that everyone doesn't get the happiness as he/she expects, it may come in a different form, which one may not expect earlier.